2012 has been difficult so far. Nothing in particular, just all of life.
Gus is two and a half (VERY two and a half) and Luci is seven months (going on 18 months) and I am 32 going on OUT OF MY EVER LOVIN MIND.
Seriously.
Misery.
Let's discuss.
I've heard that two and a half is often a bit rough. An age of disequilibrium, apparently. It seems that it's fairly normal to want to disagree with your mother about EVERYTHING. Before I had children, I knew exactly how to avoid the "terrible twos." I want to sock my former self in the face. Of course she knew what to do with all of her regular sleep, and introvert time, and her pedicured toes, and her life that was generally devoid of fussing children. A shame she can't come babysit while I hide out at Starbucks.
Then there's the girl. In late December/early January she learned to sit, crawl, and pull up--all at the same time. That's an appropriate age for sitting, but the crawling and pulling up I was not prepared for. Holy schnikes. Girlfriend is all up in the dog bowl, she's shutting her fingers in drawers, she's climbing up and then falling down the one step in our house. She's finding her brother's most valuable possessions and then paying dearly for it.Also, she totally skipped that lovely stage where you can SIT them down on the floor but trust that they will still be in the same spot when you turn back around. And why, WHY would a girl sleep when she could crawl?
Speaking of, a few moms have told me that their older child had more issues when the baby started crawling than when the baby first came home. So we're probably dealing with that too. I guess you can deal with a blob who takes up a lot of mom's attention, but when the blob comes alive and starts grabbing at your stuff and following you around, oh and by the way, still takes up mom's attention, well, that cannot be tolerated. Nope. You have no choice but to complain to the management.
I cannot leave the two of them in the room without SCREAMING following me. It's not always Gus attacking Lu. Sometimes he's merely trying to keep her away from something she's not supposed to be into...by dragging her away by her neck. Then too, sometimes Luci just cries when I leave the room. I'd forgotten about that fun little stage.
And then there's me. I hardly recognize myself. The extra weight from my pregnancy with Lu has just stayed. It's like an unwelcome house guest who won't leave. When Lu was about two months, I had faith that it would just melt off eventually. I also had determination that I wouldn't walk around looking like a sad housewife all of the time. I...am not sure where I put that faith and determination. There is a chubby, frumpy lady walking around my house calling herself mom. And all of my clothes have shrunk!
I constantly have stains on my clothing from various bodily fluids--sometimes from up to three different bodies at once. This despite constantly doing laundry (seriously, I do at least one load a day) and trying to change just before we leave the house. My kids see my fresh outfit as an invitation bleed, puke, or poo.
Around Groundhog Day I saw several posts from moms about how our life is like Groundhog Day the movie. Same thing over and over again. Hopefully I'm learning something.